stars and satellites

by now, you can probably tell that i have a thing for blue:-)
it doesn't mean that i'm gonna be a walking blue man anytime soon, though.

it's 4.37 on a cold Thursday morning.i'd just got off the sofa, after slumping on it watching tv for 6 hours straight, give or take.i thought a lot about what to write today.i could talk about politics that seem to get dirtier every single day.i could talk about the latest gossip in town.or i could write about the time and energy wasted loving something that never really existed.in the end,i decided to write as i go along.hurt can be a great muse to write something.perhaps it's because you feel so much for that certain thing or someone that you try to channel all that feeling into words.or actions.i just finished watching 'Love Story' a moment ago.and really,love stands above all.if you really love that person,you'd do anything to make it work.even when a person dies,it will not shatter you.instead, it will make you free.liberated.emancipated.

it occurred to me that those stars that i try to chase seem to be farther and farther away as i try to climb higher.but i think it fills yet another chapter of my life.fills another spot in my memory.you could say that there is melancholy in this entry.but i think there's a certain sadness in a crowded room too.


we were having dinner at this restaurant and there was a program shown on tv about 'kangkang' rice and stuff.and EVERYBODY had their eyes glued to the tv!it's sad watching them watching the tv like that.i mean, when it comes to hunger crisis or pollution, no one gives a shit.but when it comes to sex,massage parlors,prostitution,bomoh etc...suddenly everyone wants to know!at that single moment,i wished i was in a different place.different state.different country.

but my feet on the ground brings me back to reality.it appears that a drop of tear has burst out of my eye.good morning...